Just Paper.
It’s been a long time since I’ve talked to you…
Sending out more than just paper, but how I truly feel. For the people that receive one, I’ll keep my hopes up in that you’ll return the favor, or better yet, upgrade them.
The comeback.
Repition has always been a pet-peeve of mine. I’m easily irritated of repition; for things to happen, again and again, is just frustrating.
I can not stand the fact that I’m always in the situation of being in a car accident. It takes a lot to break my spirits. And as of now it’s not hard to determine that not being able to avoid a car collision for more than a year, has definitely broken mine. Or the fact that previous accidents are the underline reasoning for my health deteriorating. I’m nine-teen years old, and since the day I’ve gotten my license, I have not had a break. Accidents on top of tickets, on top of accidents, on top of insurance complications…
I want to be able to live out my life. Without having to worry, “Is today gonna be the day..” or “What could possibly go wrong today?” Yeah, it’s not something I should ponder about, but isn’t that inevitable?
This is my comeback, grand, isn’t it?
Is it just me, or is Kelis’ new album like a bite off of Janelle Monae? Album cover and everything.. That’s a damn shame, damn shame.
Start Over.
People always forget the meaning of life. You have to LIVE to enjoy your LIFE. Get out and do something that’s meaningful, not for somebody but for yourself. Now that it’s summer, I’m putting a lot more thought in how I wanna spend my time, sure hanging out with friends is always nice… But in all honesty, it’s not refreshing for me, for my own being, for my soul. As cliche as it sounds, I need another Soul Searching Journey, find what I’m about right now and how I can enhance the way I feel. I’m really looking forward to finding something new, something that’s me, you know? My goal for the summer right now, is to really get in touch with my art, which is going to be a very long and hard process, but that’s life.
Real Men.
Being a woman, it’s hard to say what a man is, since I am not one. But here’s a little lesson…
Real men don’t cuss out their daughters.
And you wonder why we don’t get along. Yeah, it’s not me hun.
I wanna go back here :)
Day 8: Internet Friend,
Dear Josh Fiel,
Kinna crazy how things happened between us, huh? It was random how we started talking, but it just felt right and has always been for the last five years. You have always been there for me, always there to listen, always there to give me advice, always there to tell me how it is. I appreciate you very much, and I’m grateful that you took the time out to get to know me. Now that you live in the area, I hope that we get into contact and maybe chill? You’re a wonderful guy, and I’ll always envy whatever girl is with you :) I love you Beefhead! And shit, text me already!
Sincerly, Jelly Butt.
PS: Five years strong, let’s keep it going.
Day 7: Your Ex-Boyfriend, etc.
Dear Joshua Vaughn,
Thanks to Jalen I found out about Cory, and I’m truly sorry… From the times I’ve talked to him, he always made me laugh and I have always wanted to meet him. And that’s one thing that I regret. I don’t know what Cory was to you, but from what I knew he was the person that was starting to bring you back. But what do I know? You and I don’t talk anymore, and iss coo’ you’re living your life and hell, I’m living mine. I messaged you about Cory, and I really hope you answer, I did mean it when I said I’m here for you.
If you ever took the chance to get to know me, you’d know that I don’t give up on people, whether we talk or not, I always still care. I hope you’re handling things well, and I hope you’re happy.
Sincerly, Jelissa
RIP Cory Ashford (1989-2010): Rest Easy.
Day 6: A Stranger
Before I get to it, I just wanna say that I’m not posting this to start drama.
Dear Mary Ann Santa Ana,
I’ve known you for about five years now, and you and I were really good friends. But as we both know, times change, people change, our expectations and goals change. We grew up together, and now we’re learning to grow up without each other. As all friends, we had our problems, we had our fights, and of course we had our good times. I can never forget the times you and I have shared, I cherish them knowing that you and I were in good company with one another. You and I got along so well because we had so many things in common, we enjoyed the same music, we knew the same people, and we were setting off of the same path.
Coming into our second year in college, you and I are completely different people. I’m doing my thing and you are doing yours. And whether or not there was bitterness in the midst of our seperation, I still have the world of respect for you. I still believe that you are a very talented and blessed woman. God blessed you with a beautiful voice and good people that surround you. I pray that you’ll follow your ambitions, growing up, and that you find the true potential within your own talents.
I say that we’re strangers, not in an insulting way, but in pure honesty. You’re a complete stranger to me now, and I guess in an optimistic way, that’s good. I wish you the best of luck in your studies, in your music, in your friends and of course, in your family. You’ll always be in my heart and I’ll always pray for you.
Spread your wings girl.
Love, Jelissa.
