April 2011
1 post
Just Paper.
It’s been a long time since I’ve talked to you…
Sending out more than just paper, but how I truly feel. For the people that receive one, I’ll keep my hopes up in that you’ll return the favor, or better yet, upgrade them.
March 2011
1 post
The comeback.
Repition has always been a pet-peeve of mine. I’m easily irritated of repition; for things to happen, again and again, is just frustrating.
I can not stand the fact that I’m always in the situation of being in a car accident. It takes a lot to break my spirits. And as of now it’s not hard to determine that not being able to avoid a car collision for more than a year, has...
July 2010
2 posts
Is it just me, or is Kelis’ new album like a bite off of Janelle Monae? Album cover and everything.. That’s a damn shame, damn shame.
Start Over.
People always forget the meaning of life. You have to LIVE to enjoy your LIFE. Get out and do something that’s meaningful, not for somebody but for yourself. Now that it’s summer, I’m putting a lot more thought in how I wanna spend my time, sure hanging out with friends is always nice… But in all honesty, it’s not refreshing for me, for my own being, for my soul. As...
June 2010
14 posts
Real Men.
Being a woman, it’s hard to say what a man is, since I am not one. But here’s a little lesson…
Real men don’t cuss out their daughters.
And you wonder why we don’t get along. Yeah, it’s not me hun.
I need a fucking vacation.
Day 8: Internet Friend,
Dear Josh Fiel,
Kinna crazy how things happened between us, huh? It was random how we started talking, but it just felt right and has always been for the last five years. You have always been there for me, always there to listen, always there to give me advice, always there to tell me how it is. I appreciate you very much, and I’m grateful that you took the time out to get to know me. Now...
Day 7: Your Ex-Boyfriend, etc.
Dear Joshua Vaughn,
Thanks to Jalen I found out about Cory, and I’m truly sorry… From the times I’ve talked to him, he always made me laugh and I have always wanted to meet him. And that’s one thing that I regret. I don’t know what Cory was to you, but from what I knew he was the person that was starting to bring you back. But what do I know? You and I don’t...
Day 6: A Stranger
Before I get to it, I just wanna say that I’m not posting this to start drama.
Dear Mary Ann Santa Ana,
I’ve known you for about five years now, and you and I were really good friends. But as we both know, times change, people change, our expectations and goals change. We grew up together, and now we’re learning to grow up without each other. As all friends, we had our...
Day 5: Your Dreams
There are somethings in my life that always stay constant, my dreams. I dream of growing up and being true to myself, never selling out. I want to be successful, and I want to be well off, but my real dream is just to be happy. I want to live my life and be reminded everyday as to why I’m here. This year, I was not happy, I gave up on myself and I’ve learned to never put myself in that...
Day 4: Your Sibling
Dear Charese,
There are so many things I’d like to tell you, but with recent events it seems it’s harder and harder to get through to you. I know that you love me, and I know that you care, but actions speak louder than words. Now-a-days you’re never here for me, and I can understand that… You’re living your own life, you’re experiencing things that you should...
Day 3: Your Parents
Dear Mom and Dad,
First off, I’d like to thank you for the hard work and effort you’ve put into me. I’d like to think that I came out an exceptional child, all thanks to you! I love the two of you no matter what happens between us. I have learned to cherish the time I have with you, and I’ve begun to value the relationship we have.
To Mom: You’re an amazing woman....
Day 2: Your Crush
Dear You,
I wouldn’t consider this a crush, I’m not even sure what this is…But whatever it is, I know it’s just lingering. We could never be anything no matter how much I’ve tried or you’ve think you’ve tried. I don’t know why things are the way they are, or why we some how end up in this position, but whatever it is, it’s not making me happy....
Day 1: Best Friend,
Dear Beasty,
I consider you more than my best friend, you’re like my brother…*correction* You ARE my brother. You’ve always been there to push me in the right direction, or the direction you think I’ll be my best at. You’ve never doubted me, you’ve never given up on me. You’re constantly by my side, no matter how busy you are or what’s going on in...
I think I'll try this →
On this day you write a letter to: Day 1: Your Best Friend Day 2: Your Crush Day 3: Your parents Day 4:Your sibling (or closest relative) Day 5: Your dreams Day 6: A stranger Day 7: Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush Day 8: Your favorite internet friend Day 9: Someone you wish you could meet
Hmm #2,
1) As mush as I think about it, I always regretted the path I took, but at the same time, I don’t. Life’s all about experiences, and with the path I took, I was happy and that’s how I know I made the right choice, no matter how frustrating it was. I constantly had it in the back of my mind, how things would have been, but that’s not healthy to always look back. I still...
Hmmm..
It’s been a long time since I’ve been on my tumblr, yet alone blogged… Things have been so crazy lately, I guess I was in denial about a lot of things, that I just didn’t want to believe in. But it is what it is. Life is constantly fluctuating, and it’s up to the individual to grow from it. I’ve learned a lot of things this year, but most importantly, I’ve...
April 2010
4 posts
Tumblr Themes.
Let me just say, that I find it incredibly ridiculous to have to pay $49 for a Tumblr theme. Who, in their right minds would pay for a THEME on TUMBLR!? Not only that, but nearly 50 dollars!? Sheesh, someone’s desperate for some extra cash, it’s okay Tumblr, I’m not judging you just the people who are stupid enough to pay for a theme.
Dem Wan
Have fun today peoples. I shall enjoy being sober, as I do EVERY 4/20 :)
maybe except.. one ;)
Advice.
I’m really disappointed in myself I tell myself the same things over and over again, and I can’t even follow my own advice. It’s like I need someone to tell me exactly what I tell myself for me to act on it. I’m seeking a change, in how Im going to process things in the future and what I plan on achieving for myself. I deserve to be happy, and I’m not going to hold...
INDEPENDENCE.
March, was definitely a rocky month for me.. Growing up is really hard to do, and it’s tougher than it seems. I’ve been disappointed and I’ve been hurt, but the only way to get past it, is to move on, and grow from what I’ve learned and especially through all the things I’ve encountered. Accidents, Family and Friends.. Shit happens, you know? But what makes life,...
March 2010
15 posts
I like your priorities, really.
I think I've had too much time for thinking...
I’m going to try and sort this one out myself… See how things turn out. I feel like a burden when I tell people how I really feel, and that I’m just adding weight on people’s shoulders.. I think I need to do this by myself…
Snip snip snip...
just waitin' for a miracle to happen..
(via ayejoyce)
Triumph.
Today feels different to me… But at the same time, somethings just haven’t changed…
I woke up this morning, feeling renewed. Idk what it is, maybe because it’s actually a pretty day today, but I just feel.. Happy. I’m not saying I wasn’t happy before, but just feel extra happy today! Some things are clear to me and others a still a little fuzzy; I’m not...
My blog turned 1 today(:
I just got an e-mail saying this, I guess.. Happy Birthday jellysammich!
Nick:
N: I was awestruck alright !
N: I never said you looked different.
N: You just look amazing
Today...
God answered my prayers. Now its my turn to fulfill my end of the bargain.. Thank you Lord<3
Strength
Like your strength, for instance(: I’m learning to be strong because of you. I’m not fully there yet, but with things that have been happening, I’ve been tested. and watching you go thru a lot and being able to come out of it stronger, has inspired me.
I’m totally speechless right now.. I have never had anyone tell me that I’ve inspired them. But, I didn’t...
You don't know what you have until it's gone.
"Someone from your past has returned to steal your...
- My fortune cookie.
hmm, interesting..?
Hip Hop is the essence of Soul.
Going back to Hip Hop,
Hip Hop has always been my tool to really find out who I am. It’s been a long while since I’ve listened to Hip Hop, and I think it’s about time I find some inspiration.
Taking out my pen and opening up my sketchbook..
This is why, I don't dwell in the past..
February 2010
36 posts
masaaaaa.tumblr: A much deeper meaning.. →
One day in our Psychology class, Danielle and I were having a conversation about what we love the most: MUSIC. That was one thing I missed about her when we had our falling out. There are people in my life who share the same love for music as me, but she’s the only one that actually gets it. To…
…and this is why you’re my bestfriend(: Well said girl, well said.
This Weekend:
Friday: Was so uplifting and renewing. I got up at 7:30am left for school, went to the school’s library and studied for three hours. I’ve been wanting to go to school and get stuff done on Fridays since I don’t have school, but just never got around to it, and after last week’s wake up call, I guess my body decided it needed a change. Not only was it accomplishing, to get...
Clean!
I just cleaned seven years of heartaches, arguments, tears.. All the filth I have ever encountered in this house, is now gone! I feel so enpowered to make a new start, especially now that seven years was just lifted off my shoulders. I scrubbed my entire room, and now it feels like mine.
If only it was that easy to clean out other things..
Today was a great day.
-Got to see my cousin<3
-Got to spend time with my Boobies<3
—> 4-Ways!(:
I love you all (including you, Azley!) with all of my heart!
My Wake Up Call,
I know I’ve said time and time again, that “I’m going to be on track during school..” “I’m not going to ditch anymore..” Well, apparently it was and always has been a hunk of shit, up until today. This afternoon, I had the hugest wake up call…I’m on Moderate Probation for applying for Spring quarter. And THAT is how you know. I am going to say...
I'm fed up with,
people giving me attitude. It’s not necessary. Grow the fuck up & talk/treat me like an adult.
#1: You need to straighten our your fucking priorities. Since when does a fucking guy come in between your family, or better yet, your sister!? Tell me. Give me a good fucking reason why He gets more respect than I do!? I have been there for you, for a lifetime and he’s been here since.....
I’m now officially following everyone who’s followed me, because everyone has something to say, and what kind of person would I be if I didn’t listen?
they're more than just friends to me..
masaaaaa:
…they’re like family. (And they specifically know who they are)
And I love them<3
I hope you mean me! LMFAO(:
Horoscope.
You may be confused about something that’s happening at work today. Or maybe an old health concern has recently returned. Fortunately, you are in a position to turn an uncertainty in your favor as long as you don’t expect to change everything overnight. Remember, it’s not about controlling anything; it’s about rolling with the incoming waves as gracefully as you can....